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I was drivin all alone when I heard my phone beep, a message was sent to me by a complete
stranger named chi. At first, I was thinking twice, should I have to hit him back or just ignore the text
I just received. “who you?” were the first words I sent him, then the conversation goes a long way.
We had many chances of talking over the net till dawn, exchanging thoughts, jokes, everything
under the sun. Just by that concept, the complete stranger captured my heart… the first ever man
who made me feel secured and guided through out my entire life..
I loved other guy before but this was the first I ever felt this way. He thought me how to love
unconditionally, meaning you have to give up the whole thing for the commitment to go tighter… I
learned to pay no heed to other guys and forget the game that I’m enjoying then, I even learned how
to face my fear just to give way in my so called ‘commitment’ with chi.
Suddenly, I woke up one morning with tears falling from my eyes; the story about my complete
stranger was nothing but just a dream. God just lend me my “CHI” so I would know the real meaning
of love and how one must hold on and do every little thing just for that love to not loosen its grip.
How I wish my complete stranger is a real guy,, how I wish that dream is not just only a fantasy, but my REAL LOVE STORY…
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There was a time in life that I need to
knob two hearts at the same time.. At
first, I was thinking of just having a
good time to forget temporarily my real
future since it was tearing me up in
two, then he came along.. He was
introduced by a common friend, and we
had fun times together..
I told myself to refrain from falling,
but as time goes by, I was drowned in
his presence.. he was the first guy who
brought out the real aspects in me, and
I learned how to value myself more as
how he gave importance to me.. I did
loved him, even tough I know, we can’t
be together..
I made him wait, and promised him that
Ill fix things up and gave him my whole,
but still.. at the end, I failed.. He
finally gave up and turned away, I had
gone crazy, did everything to win him
back, and of course possibly because of
the love left in him, he gave me another
chance.. together with all the
consequences I have to face for this
second chance to work.. I thought he’s
back in my arms, and I made sure that
he’ll never go away from me again, I was
wrong, when we’re together it seemed
like I’m with a different person, in
just one snap, everything turned hell..
I decided to cut off, and accept the
fact that I can’t have the old him
anymore, with all the pain and
sacrifices of moving on.. I thought I
can handle everything.But why am I missing him,. Why do I have
to cry rivers of tears for him? Really
hate myself for being this stupid.. I
wanna move on, and accept that he will
never be the same old JAMIESON anymore.. And
we really can’t be together…..
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