ADAMSONIAN

There was a time in life that I need to
knob two hearts at the same time.. At
first, I was thinking of just having a
good time to forget temporarily my real
future since it was tearing me up in
two, then he came along.. He was
introduced by a common friend, and we
had fun times together..

I told myself to refrain from falling,
but as time goes by, I was drowned in
his presence.. he was the first guy who
brought out the real aspects in me, and
I learned how to value myself more as
how he gave importance to me.. I did
loved him, even tough I know, we can’t
be together..

I made him wait, and promised him that
Ill fix things up and gave him my whole,
but still.. at the end, I failed.. He
finally gave up and turned away, I had
gone crazy, did everything to win him
back, and of course possibly because of
the love left in him, he gave me another
chance.. together with all the
consequences I have to face for this
second chance to work.. I thought he’s
back in my arms, and I made sure that
he’ll never go away from me again, I was
wrong, when we’re together it seemed
like I’m with a different person, in
just one snap, everything turned hell..

I decided to cut off, and accept the
fact that I can’t have the old him
anymore, with all the pain and
sacrifices of moving on.. I thought I
can handle everything.But why am I missing him,. Why do I have
to cry rivers of tears for him? Really
hate myself for being this stupid.. I
wanna move on, and accept that he will
never be the same old JAMIESON anymore.. And
we really can’t be together…..

About the author: oiM a HoPeLeSs RoMaNtIc WhO beLiEvEs In FaIrY tALE eNdInGs, BuT i ALWaYs End Up CrYiNg OvEr SoMeOnE wHoM i ThOuGhT wILL bE My kNiGhT iN sHiNiNg ArMoR... iM a PoEt WhO dOeSn'T wRiTe AnYtHiNg BuT hAs A LOt Of ThInGs To SaY... iM a LoVeR tO bOtH yOuNg AnD oLd, BiG oR sMaLL, UgLy AnD bEaUtIfUL... I aBhOr ToO MuCh ExTrAvaGaNcE, bAcK sTaBbIng, ChEaTiNg, And WrOnG dOiNgS tO oThErS, eVeNtHoUgH i KnOw ThAt I mYsELF iS a ChEaTeR, aNd A vErY eXtRaVaGanT oNe... I eAsiLLY fALL iN aNd OuT oF LoVe, AnD eAsiLLY cRiEs OveR aNyThIng... Im A vIcTiM aS wELL aS a DuPe, Im An AnGeL tRaPpEd In A DeViL's BoDy... AnD LAsTLY iM oNLY hUmAn...BoRn To MaKe MiStAkEs, BoRn To LoVe, BoRn To ChEaT, aNd BoRn To StAnD uP aFtEr EvErY fALL... tHiS iS Me, LoVe Me Or HaTe Me FoR aLL i CaRe.. hi everyone!!! im jessiemar.. izzy for short, but my friends used to call me pepper or vheckie..its up to you kung ano tatawag nyo skin.. im a young, sweet,and loving 17, even though im a gay,im proud of being who i am,and i feel confident about it,... sa mga hindi pa certified,confused about their selves,???? STAND OUT!!!!theres nothing wrong about it,as long as na tama ang ginagawa mo..i know you're doing good..and ofcourse ''JUST BE YOURSELF''.. IM SINGLE... SINCE BIRTH... di pa nknka-expirience ng relationship.. coz im afraid of committments or relationship..napaka plastik ko kung girl ang gugustuhin kong ka-relasyon!!! whats the use of being a ''GAY''???/wahehehehe!!!! i love nice guys...even though they're not looks good.. being nice is an advantage to get izzy's heart..but the question is... is there someone who wanna get my heart???? well.... no comment at all... i hate rude guys..!!! those guys na ang alam ay na ang lahat ng gays ay isang tumatakbong automatic teller machine (A.T.M) im a kind of personna madaling ma-fall, and i believe in ''love at first sight''... so, to all the guys out there!!! BEWARE!!! waheheheheh!!!!JUST KIDDING!!! ''im harmless!!!! everyone deserves to love and to beloved... and everyone deserves a great future... even me... ''i really want a great future,and i want someone to be in it, wala akong gustong mahalin kundi ang taong mahal ako... the one who's not after the money and the pleasures of life.. the one who really loves me... the one who really takes me as i am... the one who stays with me for the rest of my life.. im a hopeless romantic, who believes in living ever after, i believe in a knight with his shining armor, but yey, no one is coming... i hope someone out thre could do this to me... 'DONT GET ME WRONG HAH!!!'' ''DONT JUDGE THE BOOK BY ITS COVER'' im not a book and you're not a judge... so dont judge me... -izzylicious

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