For most of you bored reading My stories…here’s something I picked up from one of my members…with her permission of course! I thought this would be relevant this Valentine’s Day. Having been married ten years now I have forgotten what this feels like. Reading this made me squirm in apathy…sounds all distant to me now, yet nice to recall. Enjoy.
I have never felt this way before. It’s like a new spirit has suddenly blown me away and I view everything else in clear and distinct light. My footsteps are firm and for once, I knew exactly what I wanted. All I want is you.
Each second that passes, all I could ever think about is how I would spend my time, pleasing you and making you proud of me. My heart beats like it has never done before. My lungs fill up with longing of when I might see you again. My fingers fidget and fumble, awaiting your touch.
What did you do to me? I cannot explain how irrational this feeling is. How one can feel this way. It is silly. Yet the more I think about this, the more I reason out that there is no reason for me to love you this way…and yet I do.
In the coming days I will be wearing a white dress. In the coming days I will be changing my name, giving up my very own to share yours for eternity. In due time I will be lying in bed with the man of my life. Just thinking about it gives me that creepy, lovely feeling. Is this what they say it is? I guess I am in love. I sure am in love.
Way too brave for me to use that word. I have never used it before. I daresay it might lead to pain. I know it might. But how can I detest what I feel now? If I am to suffer in due time, or if ever my feelings change, I will gladly give ten times as much, for the sake of this moment. A moment when I feel finally alive. So how can something bad come out of this? Oh how can a love be so untrue? Everything is beautiful. Everything is where they should be. Geez…how I love thee.
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About the author:
1990 - Freshman belonging to a seminary called the Marian Missionaries of the Holy Cross. The very first student to run out of St. Vincent's Bldg. from the Registrar's office when the violent earthquake of 1990 began.
1992 - Fresh out of the seminary and back to the corridors of the institution. Feeling the need to belong to something or someone. That was when I found SAMAKA.
1993 - Elected President of the College of Liberal Arts, really did nothing but hung out with Morfe, Echauz, Mercado and the Filipinism ideologue. Most were SI Fraternity members.
1994 - Got tired of student politics and joined the MASP, a popular group of Student Speech instructors who knew how to clean tables and do teachers' errands. At least we got paid and I got to "own" the Speech Lab off the 2nd floor of the ST bldg.
1995 - Elected as President of the Adamson University Student Government (AUSG). The election was a landslide courtesy of a no-show opponent, a dysfunctional left-winger, an ambitious "speaker", and my being a popular student teacher.
Not that I did not deserve the position at that time. My term was the most peaceful the last fifteen years prior.
Here are My Achievements:
- Minimal pillboxes thrown off the campus since I keep them in my Cabinet at the AUSG office.,
- Less frat wars since I attended their drinking sprees in front of Cardinal bldg.,
- A more religious contribution from the AUSG, never before done, during the celebration of World Youth Day
- More parties or celebrations like a week-long festivity during the Student Week, a College Student Government celebration, a fund-raising dance party for Lahar victims and other sorties we would not mention.
I am glad I was part of this institution. I am proud to say that it was because of ADU that I am who I turned out to be.
For more of me, visit www.ownlegacy.com.
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